22 October 2015

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Dear God,

“That is all I do. Throw stones in the air, and if somebody yells I know the stone came down.” Merton

I don’t feel like praying today. I don’t feel like writing. I don’t feel like working. At times, I wonder why any of this matters, this senseless spinning about, worrying over my own work and the world, when most of us seem intent on watching the whole thing go up in flames as long as Hollywood still pumps out movies about it. It would probably be best to just sit back and warm myself by the fire, to grab a bag of popcorn and enjoy the show as well.

I suppose I need hope and faith. Continue reading →

19 October 2015

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Dear God,

“But then the natural law can always find a way of being dishonest in honor of the Gospel. To save the Church. Yes, that’s what the dear old Church needs: the protection of natural law, or even, who knows, of gang law? At any rate, protection. She simply can’t get along anymore with this Christian stuff about charity, it’s plain ruinous and utterly against the moral theology manuals. So let’s wipe out the reds with a first strike. This will really put the Gospel message of peace across to the backward savages in those uncultivated and uncivilized countries where they still kill with spears. (Haven’t caught up with the more sophisticated angels of double effect.)” Merton

This comes from a letter written to the Jesuit priest, radical peace activist, and draft card burner, Daniel J. Berrigan, in 1961. It’s always fun to read Merton talk to a fellow man or woman of the cloth. It’s here where we see his more acerbic, jesting, and cynical side towards Christian religion come out. What a wonder, I like that.

Of course, for Merton it’s never destruction for destruction’s sake. Continue reading →

16 October 2015

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Dear God,

“There are times when it is necessary to read, and even to read quite a lot, in order to store up material and get new perspectives.” Merton

“My prayer is then a kind of praise rising up from the center of Nothing and Silence… It is not ‘thinking about’ anything, but a direct seeking of the Face of the Invisible, which cannot be found unless we become lost in Him who is Invisible.” Merton

Storing up new material and directly seeking the Face of the Invisible through the negation of all thought — two ideas seemingly in contradiction. Yet, this is the center of the mystical traditions in almost all religions. How could it be otherwise? We must approach that Whom which cannot be wrapped in language, for She is beyond all differentiation, through meditation and the negation of the I as well as the ever persistent attempt to come to terms with the No-thing through the repetition and difference of language.

Last night I was alone after having worked all day grant writing. I wanted to write more but was tired. I drank a beer. Continue reading →

10 October 2015

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Dear God,

“It seems to me that mutual comprehension between Christians and Moslems (sic) is something of very vital importance today, and unfortunately it is rare and uncertain, or else subjected to the vagaries of politics.” Merton

I don’t plan on writing these prayers every Saturday, which isn’t to say I won’t pray in one form or another. I’m like Brother Lawrence in that way, constantly in a state of communication with the divine. Haha. Yeah right.

But seriously, these words struck me today, and I thought, what the hell? I’ll pray. It seems pertinent on a day when ignorant and racist hillbillies and rednecks (which isn’t to say all hillbillies and rednecks are ignorant and racist; some, many I’m sure, are fine and lovely and good, but you know that) are going out to protest Mosques in our country, possibly with concealed firearms. It’s just another way for white supremacy, fear, ignorance, and stupidity to manifest itself — a deadly cocktail, all to often available in the American social and political sphere. Continue reading →